Who I am!
I
think hard to define the title above, it’s no theory from expert can be pictured
me maybe they will say I’m a human having complete body, thought and almost can
do all daily activities well. If I ask
to my parents, of course they will say I’m their daughter. Friends and
colleague must confess that I am one of their friends. But I have another side
to see who I am.
I’m
just an ordinary girl from ordinary family in ordinary world. Almost sixteen
years I have been doing the same thing; going to school and campus, doing assignment, getting score every semester and I
will end it next year (InsyaAllah). Taking master degree? I have to think
again. When I was child, the question “what do you want to be in the future?” became
so familiar. I used to lose idea to imagine what I wanna be later and my
friends said that they wanna be doctor. I tried to imagine me as a doctor, but
there were no picture in my brain. Yes, I didn’t want to be doctor; it was hard
to see blood and injury, hated wearing doctor (white) uniform and smelled
medicine. Until I went to Junior High School, I got ambition to be a teacher,
maths teacher exactly because I loved maths and expert in it at the time. Why I
choosed teacher? Because I loved class situation, student with different
characters, meeting new students every year.Yes, I could imagine it- nice picture that still embed in my brain until
now.
(Do
you want to be a teacher? Yes, I do. Is it English teacher? Mm.. It can be.)
The
destiny is not like my expectation. The reality is I am a student in English
Education Department now. A math soul change to be a language soul. The
transformation happen, can you imagine how my brain works? Twelve years (school
time), I have had math brain then it change to be language brain for next and
maybe rest of my life. It’s too hard for me but I won’t give up. As ordinary
girl, I belive Allah has good planning for me.
I go into a new world. My
classmates, most of them are expert too much in English. It's really a strange world- listening explanation in English, talking in
English. I become a quite listener, how can I learn what the lecture say I can
not catch up well. Every semester I just get a standard score (it's not high
not low, but it's enough for a beginning leaner like me:) ).
I may look like I'm not do
anything, but I'm quite busy problem-solving, being creative, or just thinking
in my head with about 30 tabs open. My mouth can not translate what my brain
and heart say. As long as I go campus I still be a observer- seeing how the
class grow up it's make me having another knowledge that cannot see by others.
Over analyzing is the type of my mind now, I'm so sensitive to interpret
anything. I'm optimist with my positive mind, maybe it's not my world but this
world need someone like me.
"Creativity is inventing,
experimenting, growing, taking risks, breaking rules, making mistakes and
having fun- Mary Lou Cook".
It's nice quote as booster for
alive mind.
April, 15th
Very good start santi! I am sure you can be a good teacher!
BalasHapushehehe thanks tiara. :)
Hapus